One More Light

Should’ve stayed, were there signs, I ignored?
Can I help you, not to hurt, anymore?
We saw brilliance, when the world, was asleep
There are things that we can have, but can’t keep

If they say
Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone’s time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We’re quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do

The reminders pull the floor from your feet
In the kitchen, one more chair than you need oh
And you’re angry, and you should be, it’s not fair
Just ’cause you can’t see it, doesn’t mean it, isn’t there

If they say
Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone’s time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We’re quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do

Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone’s time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We’re quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do

Well I do

 

Chester Bennington helped write this song.  It saddened me to learn that he had taken his own life.  Not because he was famous.  Not because I’ve loved Linkin Parks music for a long time.  Not because his voice was so unique.  Yes he was all of those things, but it saddens me because its another example of a war lost.

Can you imagine writing the song lyrics above, singing the song lyrics and being unable to believe them?  And folks lets set the record straight, it was not that he didnt want to believe the words.  Everyone wants to believe they will be missed.  Some people actually cant believe it though.  Chemically their mind will not let them believe it.  Its so hard when you have to fight demons no one can see.  Sometimes I feel like it would be so much easier if like in video games we could summon a monster to fight instead of feeling like we are fighting ourselves.  And thats what it is folks.  Every day is a fight with yourself.  And its exhausting.

I know my personal struggle is not as bad as it could be.  Still every day is a battle in a raging war.  I battle myself to get out of bed.  I battle myself to get dressed sometimes.  I battle myself to go to work.  I battle myself to stay out of bed the minutes 4:30 rolls around.  I have people who help in my battles.  My son, my husband, my best friend who fights her own battle.  I am surrounded by people who love me and yet I’m trapped in my own mind and feel very very alone sometimes.

Its heartbreaking to think that the song he helped write could help so many people but it couldnt help him.  We dont know what his war was exactly (and we dont have any right to know) only that he fought and ultimately lost.

Hopefully his music will help someone even if it couldnt help him.

 

 

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

https://projectsemicolon.com/

 

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