One More Light

Should’ve stayed, were there signs, I ignored?
Can I help you, not to hurt, anymore?
We saw brilliance, when the world, was asleep
There are things that we can have, but can’t keep

If they say
Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone’s time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We’re quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do

The reminders pull the floor from your feet
In the kitchen, one more chair than you need oh
And you’re angry, and you should be, it’s not fair
Just ’cause you can’t see it, doesn’t mean it, isn’t there

If they say
Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone’s time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We’re quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do

Who cares if one more light goes out?
In a sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone’s time runs out?
If a moment is all we are
We’re quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out?
Well I do

Well I do

 

Chester Bennington helped write this song.  It saddened me to learn that he had taken his own life.  Not because he was famous.  Not because I’ve loved Linkin Parks music for a long time.  Not because his voice was so unique.  Yes he was all of those things, but it saddens me because its another example of a war lost.

Can you imagine writing the song lyrics above, singing the song lyrics and being unable to believe them?  And folks lets set the record straight, it was not that he didnt want to believe the words.  Everyone wants to believe they will be missed.  Some people actually cant believe it though.  Chemically their mind will not let them believe it.  Its so hard when you have to fight demons no one can see.  Sometimes I feel like it would be so much easier if like in video games we could summon a monster to fight instead of feeling like we are fighting ourselves.  And thats what it is folks.  Every day is a fight with yourself.  And its exhausting.

I know my personal struggle is not as bad as it could be.  Still every day is a battle in a raging war.  I battle myself to get out of bed.  I battle myself to get dressed sometimes.  I battle myself to go to work.  I battle myself to stay out of bed the minutes 4:30 rolls around.  I have people who help in my battles.  My son, my husband, my best friend who fights her own battle.  I am surrounded by people who love me and yet I’m trapped in my own mind and feel very very alone sometimes.

Its heartbreaking to think that the song he helped write could help so many people but it couldnt help him.  We dont know what his war was exactly (and we dont have any right to know) only that he fought and ultimately lost.

Hopefully his music will help someone even if it couldnt help him.

 

 

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

https://projectsemicolon.com/

 

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Salvaged – Jay Crownover

I had this book on my e-reader for three days before I read it.  Why did it take that long?  Because I have issues reading the last book in a series.  I don’t want to say goodbye to the people in these series.  Jay Crownover has done such a brilliant job bringing this cast of characters to life and I just wanted to hold on a little bit longer.

I know, I know I can always go back and read them but that’s not the point.  The point is, there are no new books coming for this series.  We don’t know what happens to them after this book is done.  That is why I have a hard time reading the last installment in a series.  However its done and it was a wonderful book.

 

Salvaged is the story of Poppy and Wheeler.  While we’ve met these characters in previous books and have a sort of idea about what they are like this is the first time you truly get to know them.

Poppy.  Poor Poppy.  My heart aches for what she has been through and it breaks my heart because I know somewhere out in the world there are women like her trying to survive.  And I get it.  I get why she stayed where she was.  I’ve been there.  Not as extreme as Poppy but still, I get it.  I think that’s why I connect with Poppys character so much.  She is the story of so many women brought to life through ink and paper.

Poppy is a very broken person and she’s trying desperately to put the pieces back together.  She WANTS to move on and begin her life again.  Unfortunately for her the first man she feels drawn to is engaged to someone else and even when that falls through all is not easy since he’s going to have a baby with his ex.

Abandoned by his only parent at the age of 4, Wheeler has spent his life looking for a place to belong.  He thought he had found it with his ex-fiancee Kallie but when she breaks his heart, and their engagement he feels like the family he had found never truly existed and doesn’t know if a family for him actually exists.

I know this makes it sound like Wheeler is not a good man but if you havent read any of the other books of this series please understand that it was Kallie’s decision to leave and it nearly destroyed Wheeler when she did.

Wheeler is a fixer both in his personal life and his job.  He restores classic cars and fixes broken ones in a garage he owns.  One of my favorite conversations from this book focuses on this aspect of Wheeler.  He tells Poppy that he will be the one to fix her and make her shine again.  She replies that unfortunately there are no spare parts for her so she doesn’t think she’ll ever be whole again.  He then tells her  that nothing needs replaced.  She just need to be shown the love and attention you have always deserved.  She just needs a little maintenance. (I am completely paraphrasing there but I think you get the point.)

I think that’s when I fell in love with Wheeler.  That was the moment you knew he got it.  That it’s never about the other person doing everything they can to make themselves the best version for you.  It’s about giving them the love and care that they need so they can be the best.  It is always, always about taking care of whats yours, making it shine so bright that no one can miss just how amazing they are for you.  If you do that for someone they will take the time to do it for you too.

Jay Crownover also does a fantastic job of making sure both Poppy and Wheeler face their pasts and understand that they aren’t alone in that confrontation.

Jay Crownover did a beautiful job finishing out a series that I have come to love so much.  Rule, the first book in the Marked Men series just about broke my heart, and while Poppy and Wheelers stories are no less sad the bulk of that sadness had happened in previous books so this final book really was about healing and moving on and I think that is what is so spectacular about this book.  In her ability to write it as the final book knowing that you have to move on from this series she finished the series with all of her characters moving on and simply…living.

 

Be sure to check out more of Jay Crownovers work at: https://www.jaycrownover.com/

 

Meghan March – Real Dirty Duet Series

I stumbled upon Meghan March as an author simply by chance and I am sooo glad I did.  She has several series out there and the first series of hers I read was The Dirty Billionaire Trilogy and it was….whew, lets just say it was. 😉

While the series that I have read of hers all twine together much like Kristen Ashley’s books you definitely do not have to ready the Billionaire Trilogy to read the Dirty Duet series.  Does it lend to the story?  Absolutely!  Is it a requirement? Not really.  I can guarantee though that if you love one of hers you will love them all and you’ll regret not starting with the Dirty Billionaires.

The Real Dirty Duet series focuses on country music star (and resident bad boy) Boone Thrasher.  I was so happy to find out that Boone was getting his own series.  He is a friend of the leading lady in the Billionaire Trilogy and was one of those characters that as I read the story I thought to myself that he needed his own story.

I will freely admit that I am a bad boy addict (except in real life in all honesty) and the more tatted and pierced the better.  If you add in the fact that the man can sing and play guitar then I’m a complete goner.

Boone’s story begins on the night where he was intending to propose to his long time (and really annoying) girl friend but she doesn’t show. Oh darn. (Insert extreme sarcasm here)  He goes out drinking with his buddy to drown his sorrows in true country music star fashion thinking he will just have to find another time and place to ask her.  They end up at a hole in the wall bar called The Fishbowl where he meets the stunning Ripley.

While Boone may be country musics bad boy he is, if nothing else, faithful to a fault so while Ripley may draw him in it’s a line he wont cross.  Except nothing is going as planned and when that line no longer exists Boone wants nothing more to win Ripley’s heart. There’s just one small little problem.

Ripley has sworn she will never date anyone in the spotlight and especially not country music stars so while she may have fun with Boone she is adamant that it can and will go nowhere.

While there are certainly external elements that bring this story to life it is the struggle that Ripley has and Boone’s fight to win her that really drive this series and make it so good to read.  Even though Ripley’s fears may be an unlikely scenario for most of us the way Meghan March writes it feels much closer to home when she runs up against her worst nightmare.

This two book series was phenomenal and the only problem I truly had with it was that it was just two books!

Be sure to check out Meghan and all her fabulous books at: http://meghanmarch.com/

Remember if you have any books you would love to see a review on be sure to leave suggestions!  I’m always looking for a new adventure.

Wildest Dreams – Kristen Ashley

So much could be said about Kristen Ashley.  She is a long time favorite author of mine and her books are one author I am guaranteed to pick up and at least give a chance and more often than not end up loving.  I have read all of her contemporary romance books and was unsure if I wanted to delve into the fantasy land she created simply because it had been so long since I had read any fantasy novels. Five to ten years ago that would have been all I read.  That being said I’m really glad I picked up Wildest Dreams and it has quickly become a favorite book.

Wildest Dreams is the first book in Kristen Ashley’s Fantastical series.  The book works based on the premise that there is an alternate universe and that everyone in this world has a twin in that world. (Well almost everyone.)  While you have a twin on the other side there is nothing to say that twin is like you in any way other than appearance.  Someone shy and reserved in this world may be vivacious and outgoing in the other world.  Through magic it is possible to go to the other world but the catch is you have to trade places with them.  You cannot both be in the same world.

In this book our heroine Seoafin “Finnie” Wilde is from our world and has suffered through the loss of her parents.  Shes a bit of a thrill seeker and fully believes in living everyday to the fullest.  She finds out about the other world and through her witch friend Valentine finds out that her parents still exist in the other world.  She also finds that her twin Sjofn (pronounced like Seoafin) is more than happy to change places with her.  At the agreed upon date and time Sjofn and Seoafin trade places (for the next year) and while Sjofn is coming to a world where she can do and be who she wants (and has the money to do so thanks to Seoafin), our heroine finds herself five minutes away from being married.  Not only is she getting married but she’s getting married to a man who clearly dislikes her and in fact abandons her on their wedding night stating he’d ‘be back in a month or two’.

Abandoned in a run down cabin that hasn’t seen a broom in months, or maybe even years Seoafin can either give in to her situation or make the best of it and since she’s a Kristen Ashley heroine we all know the choice she makes.  By the time her ‘husband’ returns she’s got the cabin cleaned and sparkling, has made friends in the nearby town, and is surviving just fine on her own.  What she is not doing is acting the way Frey (her husband) is expecting her to act.

It is soon discovered the Frey has ties to both fairies and dragons in this world and is a force to be reckoned with.  With the help from the fairies Frey makes some misguided (but sweet in the end) decisions that ultimately mean there is no going home for Seoafin.

Through twists and turns of fate Frey and Finnie find their way in the magical world they are living in and fall in love as all good heroes and heroines should and in true Kristen Ashley fashion she makes your heart stop for a few chapters.  I’m not going to lie I really was unsure if she was going to fix the havoc she created in this book.

As with every Kristen Ashley book they get their HEA and you get a glimpse at the people who are the focus of the other books in this series.

In short if you are looking for a book to help you escape to a world where magic still exists, the good guys are also slightly bad, and you want to believe that happily ever after still exists then this is a great read.

If you are looking for your Kristen Ashley fix and aren’t sure about reading the fantasy side of her writing I encourage you to do so.

Want more from Kristen?  Be sure to check out her website to stay up to date on all her releases:  http://www.kristenashley.net/

 

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